So, a little update on me...I feel great! :)
Here's what happened:
After I wrote my last post, I felt really bad, and called him. And you wanna know what he said? He couldn't and wouldn't take me back. After I got it through my system, my best friend came over before show choir practice and she made me feel really good! We goofed around and put on a bunch of my old dance costumes and we went to practice in them. When we got there, I got a bunch of hugs from friends, and I started to feel really good. The next day I woke up, I felt amazing, a complete one-eighty! I guess I realized that I really don't need a guy (even though I loved him) to make me whole. I feel great getting to talk to everyone I want, and not worrying about what he won't like (because he really didn't like a lot of things...like me having guy friends). I feel happy, and I'm going to do what make ME happy from now on.
I still haven't put everything of his/what he gave me in a box (which I'm planning on doing this weekend with my best friend Mirandasaurus) but, I don't feel like I need it. I'm not going to throw it away, because that's shallow. Someday I'll be able to look back on our relationship and think about the good times we did have together, and maybe I'll be happy. But, for right now, I'm moving on. I have an idea of who I might ask to WPA, and I think it'll be lots of fun (it'll be my first dance without him, and I'm okay with it!)
Anyway, thought I'd clarify. I'd actually delete the last post, but I need the words for our requirement (thanks to our favorite AP Lang teacher...)
:)
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